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Drained

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 01:32:41 -0400

I want to do something because I want to do it, not because I have to.

When you go backpacking and/or hiking with a heavy backpack, do...

Sat, 05 May 2012 04:29:00 -0400

When you go backpacking and/or hiking with a heavy backpack, do you leave your bag when you get tired?

I think relationships are something like that. When you hike with a backpack, it’s not as easy as it sounds. The higher you climb, the heavier your bag gets. Sometimes you might contemplate on leaving the thing behind because it’s the easier thing to do. Who wouldn’t want to reach the summit without a burden on his back? However, when you do that and when you’re already at the top, you will regret doing so. Everything you need to survive on that summit is in that backpack. When you get hungry, you will realize that you should have brought some food. When you get cold, you will realize that you should have brought something to keep you warm. When you want to appreciate the beauty at the top of the mountain, you realize you should have brought your camera. But you didn’t because it was difficult to climb with a heavy burden. Only then you will feel that you should have brought your backpack along with you and you would have had enjoyed a lot more.

Being in a relationship is somewhat like that. When you go through difficult times, you don’t just leave your partner because it’s easier that way. When you do, you will feel empty and hurt and lonely. Only then you will realize that you need your partner. Only then you will realize the VALUE of your partner.

I know it’s not as easy as it sounds, especially when feelings are involved. However, when you look at it in a bigger picture, you will feel more rewarded when you and you partner would overcome your difficulties together.

When you go backpacking and/or hiking and when you reach your destination, it feels good when you have everything you need on your back. You won’t get lost, you won’t starve, you will enjoy your trip a lot more. In relationships, when you have overcome all your obstacles together with your partner, it will make you feel fulfilled and less lonely.

Whenever I receive a simple act of kindness from a stranger, I...

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 02:12:09 -0500

Whenever I receive a simple act of kindness from a stranger, I always remind myself that this world we’re living in still has hope. I want to pay the act of kindness forward.

Sofie being silly. :)

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 00:38:14 -0500

Sofie being silly. :)

Photo

Mon, 05 Dec 2011 09:01:11 -0500

Thus said the headache, “I shall visit you and manifest my presence with all my might.”

Tue, 22 Nov 2011 08:30:15 -0500

Thus said the headache, “I shall visit you and manifest my presence with all my might.”

"I love my job."

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 06:42:31 -0500

“I love my job.”, the green, almost-tattered Post-it sticking on my workstation said. The statement was written seven times. Seven times! I wrote this “reminder” almost 6 months ago to keep me motivated. Now, 6 months later, I gained new perspectives and learned a few things.

This job turned out to be mediocre. It was not as exciting as it used to be but it’s not boring either. I guess I can compare it with rice. For most Filipinos, rice is the staple food. Everything is eaten with rice. Some people loves rice, some people just got used to eating it that the thought of eating a meal without it would not be a “meal” at all. I will leave you to figure out the metaphor.

I got inspired to give my best at work when I met this 2 people. I will name them “A” and “B”. A is a hardworking person. You can really see that she loves her job. She hates being late. She really delves deep into her work and you can see the dedication she gives to her job. B is married to her job. She lives and breathes her job. When I think about them, I recollected my attitude towards my work and realized that I just settle for what I can do. And it’s not me.

I keep reminding myself that no matter how I got into this line of work, no matter how disinterested I am about my work, I should give my best. No more excuses. After all, it pays the rent.

Bandaid

Wed, 12 Oct 2011 02:53:34 -0400

“Sana bandaid na lang ako. Para tatakpan ko ang sugat mo. I’m sorry sa mga nasabi ko. I love you.” - F to P.

Orange.

Pink.

Green.

Sofie’s Friday with us. ♥

Tue, 04 Oct 2011 05:11:06 -0400

Sofie’s Friday with us. ♥

Karma.

Mon, 03 Oct 2011 09:10:12 -0400

“If a person cheats to be with you, they will cheat on you too. A relationship that begins with lies will be filled with lies. A relationship that starts with cheating will end with cheating. What you give you shall receive.”

Hand

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 08:37:00 -0400

“A broken hand works, but not a broken heart” - Persian Proverb

So, my right hand is slightly injured now. I don’t know why. It just started aching a few days back. I hope it will get better soon.

“My hands are small, I know
But they’re not yours, they are my own
But they’re not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken.” - Jewel, Hands

About Sonnet 43 by EBB

Sat, 01 Oct 2011 08:25:00 -0400

I often wonder if I could ever write something so passionate that it can touch the hearts of men the way this sonnet did to me.

Sonnet 43 - How do I love thee by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

This speaks of the most unconditional human love I ever heard of. This sonnet was introduced to me by my English teacher many, many years back. Since then, the meaning, the heart, the soul of this sonnet has never left my heart. It was planted in my consciousness and its roots seeped so deeply into my heart.

- Oct 1, 2011, 4:18PM, Dubai, UAE

6:32 AM, Friday, September 30, 2011.

Sat, 01 Oct 2011 07:15:52 -0400

6:32 AM, Friday, September 30, 2011.

Friday, September 30, 2011.

Sat, 01 Oct 2011 07:12:30 -0400

Friday, September 30, 2011.

Roses. Playing with my cam.♥

Sat, 01 Oct 2011 07:05:52 -0400

Some shots from my Ponkan.

Eve of 6th

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 04:05:16 -0400

I was on a “diet”. But she insisted that I should eat.

On the eve of our 6th.

Orange. ♥

Pangit shot. hehe.

Smiling orange. ♥

laundry+vampire diaries+ orange.

Happy 6th.♥

September 26, 2011 Dinner

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 08:21:00 -0400

Ponkan was very tired yesterday. She was still in a moderately irritated mood when I got in the car. A few phone calls later, she finally shook off the irritation. The ultimate question we ask ourselves on the way home almost everyday is: What do you want to eat for dinner? We were passing the same question to each other several times yesterday before we decided to eat out.

We ended up eating at PAPA JOHN’S PIZZA. We ordered our favorite Cheese Sticks, Seafood Pasta and Buffalo Chicken Wings. Yummy!

Cheesesticks - served with Special Garlic and Pizza Dipping.

The best-tasting dip.

Chicken Wings with Buffalo Hot Sauce.The chicken was tender, juicy and so tasty. You can see the fresh herbs rubbed into the skin for flavor.

Seafood Pasta served on a hot plate with melting mozzarella cheese and bread sticks on the side.

Softdrinks was bottomless. Yipee!

The dinner changed Ponkan’s mood. We went out of the restaurant with full stomachs and smiles on our faces. ♥ 27-09-2011

Friday's

Mon, 26 Sep 2011 03:25:12 -0400

Out of a whim, we went to TGI Friday’s for dinner last week. It has been a while since we had a REAL date. This one marks as one of the best ones. We talked just like the old times, we enjoyed the food just as much as we enjoyed being together.

One of the great things about TGI Friday’s is that they have this cool memorabilia stuck on their walls. It looks fun and it brings pleasure to the eyes. The best thing about Friday’s is their delicious steaks - cooked into perfection. The appetizing Fried Chicken Salad with Honey- Mustard sauce is just delish. We also ordered their Raspberry Shakers. This refreshing, cool beverage is just the perfect drink!

Raspberry Cool Shaker Drink

Fried Chicken Salad with honey mustard sauce and ciabatta bread

The best-tasting Rib Eye Steak. ♥

They also have a great promotion now. They are giving AED50 coupon when you dine in the restaurant. We just have to answer a few survery questions on thier website and we will get a code to make the coupon valid for use! Looks like we will be visiting TGI Friday’s again soon.

September 24 musings.

Sat, 24 Sep 2011 02:45:55 -0400

I will always hold my head up high. No matter where I go, I know I have done my best. I don’t blame anybody and I don’t care if they blame me. Only God can judge me. As long as I know I am not stepping on anyone’s dreams or aspirations to get ahead in the game, I will always stand tall.

When I do something wrong, I ask forgiveness. When someone offends me, I easily forgive. This is just the way of the world. I used to keep a grudge on people who offended me but now, as I mature, I left that kind of thinking somewhere in between the dirty laundry and the trash bins (I couldn’t find it anywhere. Not that I need it.).

A Letter to Myself

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 03:55:00 -0400

This is yet another blog entry from my other blog account. I have to say, this is my most favorite blog entry ever. I hope some of you can relate.

Dear Christine,

Questions keep flooding your mind. Why? What did you ever do to deserve these crazy things that are happening to you? Well, soon, you will know the answers. You will soon find out and everything will make sense. Soon - not now. The answers will come to you at the right time.

You have been through a lot lately. You were hurt and abused. But I think it happened to you only because you let it happen. You allowed others to use you and you never complained. Ever since you can remember, you always thought of others first before yourself. You gave and gave some more until you are left with nothing. You have forsaken your own needs just to give what others need. Now more than ever, you should think about yourself first before others - a lesson that life taught you the hard way. Because, afterall, you have NO ONE but YOURSELF to depend on.

When you look back, you are overwhelmed by the bitterness that is still there in your heart. Open your heart to forgiveness: Only forgiveness can cure that bitterness. Then, you will see and feel the difference of a burden-free heart. Just remember that what you experienced in the past - the pain, the laughter, the happiness, the sorrow, all these and more made you stronger. And what’s more important is that those things made you a better person.

The past is meant to be left in the past. Leave all those extra baggage where it belongs. The only things that you should carry with you are the lessons that you have learned.

Love yourself more. Live each day as if it is your last because you never know when your heart will stop beating. Smile more, laugh more and giggle more. Don’t deprive yourself of the things that will make you happy. In the long run, you are the one who is going to reap the rewards of your actions.

Travel, explore and do whatever that brings pleasure to your heart. REMEMBER: You can NEVER depend on anybody but yourself.

You have been lost. It’s time for you to come back home, where you belong. In the arms of our Creator. Always keep in mind that He won’t give you these trials if He thinks you can’t overcome them. Keep the fire of faith burning in your heart. Always remember to pray. Prayers can heal your broken soul.

You are your own woman. Never let any man hold you on the neck and tell you what to do with your life. You are intelligent enough to distinguish what is right and what is not. You have always been independent. Do not rely on a man to feed you, clothe you, take care of you. You can do that on your own. If someone comes along and does that to you, that’s merely a bonus for loving yourself.

Always remember, in your journey, you have friends and family behind you.

Whatever happens, you are solely responsible of your life. Let the people you love know that you love them and show them how you feel without expectations of them loving you back in the same way you love them.

These things will help you grow. You have been selfless enough. You have all the reasons in the world to be selfish once in a while.

Live. Love. Be merry.

Yourself.